eighteen forever?

It's a new year, it's a new me. Right? Not necessarily...

It's funny how some days can be incredibly awesome and other days can just suck. I wonder why that is. Is it something that you have any control of whatsoever? I mean, I'm sure you "control your own destiny" and all to an extent, but at some point everything that happens is out of your hands. For instance, yesterday should have been terrible, but it wasn't. I had finals all day yesterday and I completely tanked my College Algebra final. But all in all I had a pretty good day since I got to sit and talk with my friends, listen to music, and just do what I wanted.

Sometimes how I dress can really set my day off in a certain direction, but then, I wonder if maybe that's all in my head.. I mean maybe if I broke out of my bubble more often it would change the course of my day. I suppose you have to take the good with the bad.

I sit here writing to you in the midst of all these people. I just tune them out. I don't care what they're talking about and we all seem so different. So how is it that we can all be so similar? So commonly grouped together. All of us are going through similar things in our lives, wondering where the time went and how it could have possibly flown by as quickly as it did. Some of us are afraid of getting older and just wish we could all stay eighteen forever, but that's where I am different. I don't want to be eighteen forever. I want to live in the moment and I look forward to my future, but I'm stuck between wanting to grow up and not wanting to wish away my "childhood" (young adulthood). I mean these are the years that people tell us about when they are older, they describe how full of priceless memories and opportunities they are.

So where do we go from here? Does anyone know? I feel like my life is like one long, winding road trip from coast to coast and I'm just along for the ride. The whole time just listening to the soundtrack that is my life. Maybe the songs that make up the soundtrack to your life are more important than you think. I wonder which songs you will choose.

I suppose that's all for now..



p.s. the soundtrack to my life would most definitely include these songs (in no particular order of importance)

  • Fire/Fear // Head and the Heart
  • Sweet Disposition // The Temper Trap
  • Matilda // Alt-J
  • Bitch // Meredith Brooks
  • Dog Days Are Over // Florence and the Machine
  • Forever Young // Rod Stewart (nostalgic purposes)
  • Island in the Sun // Weezer
  • Love Will Be Enough for Us // Brandon Heath
  • Put Your Records On // Corinne Bailey Rae
  • Wide Open Spaces // Dixie Chicks 
  • Scar Tissue // Red Hot Chili Pepers
  • Shake Me Down // Cage the Elephant
  • Silver Lining // Rilo Kiley
  • Ain't No Mountain High Enough // Marvin Gaye & Tammi Terrell
  • Banana Pancakes // Jack Johnson
  • Bubble Toes // Jack Johnson
  • It Ain't Over 'Til It's Over // Lenny Kravitz
  • Clair De Lune // Claude Debussy (for the sad days)
  • Far Far Away // Yael Naim
  • New Soul // Yael Naim
  • Only Time // Enya (for when I need to mellow out)
  • Autumn in New York // Frank Sinatra (for when it's autumn and I'm in New York)
  • December // Norah Jones
  • Falling in Love at a Coffee Shop // Landon Pigg
These songs are only few that would make up the plethora of songs on the Soundtrack to my life. I do believe, however, that it's a pretty darn good start.